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"Rechah" is a Hebrew word I learned a while back. 


It translates: "a place otherwise unknown".

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In Jan of 2017 I quit my job and moved into my camper van to pursue of a life of freedom. I started this blog as a way to document my travels, but also to share my story.

My journey has not always been an easy one, however the more I travel, expend and learn to follow my heart, the more I am finding myself come alive in a world of so much love and light.

My current adventures include: Learning about consciousness, traveling in my camper van, hanging out at my Airstream Airbnb, brainstorming about the book I would like to write and dreaming of the Airbnb/communal property I would like to create.

 


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My favorite shooting star
By Jamiejoy Lidberg

I was trying so hard to hear all the beautiful words coming from his lips... But all I could process was his arm around me and his hand on my thigh and his kisses on my cheek and his patients as I stubble over my words like I do.

I tried to play it casual, my walls stand tall. But they were no match for his love, his acceptance of me.

Wait, no. I'm not thin. I dropped out of school. I grew up in a cult.
Im not enough.

And yet he wanted me, for all the time that he had here. My company, my hand, my smile.

I drove him to the train station later that afternoon. I knew I probably wouldn't see him again, but somehow that was ok. Somehow keeping him, was not what it was about...
He had already given me enough. 
The love we shared, not deep, but flowing. Light streaks for each other.

Friend, you are my favorite shooting star. Thank you for reminding me that I am lovable.

November 22, 2017

 

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As If 

By Jamiejoy Lidberg

Choose to see the world as if we have a sun who shines for us,
An earth that gives us bread,
Bodies that work on our behalf. 
As if we hold in our hands the answers to many ancient questions, 
As if knowledge could somehow be transferred to us from the sky.
As if we could get into a machine and magically be transported,
As if contacting a distant lover could be done in a mere moment of time.
As if all knowledge and resources and convenience were laid out right before us,
As if the world was on our side.


November 5, 2017

 

 

 

 

Brave
By Jamiejoy Lidberg

I was going to post this picture before I left MN. This is a necklace I bought in Alaska which reads "Brave".

You've probably seen my posts about this before... I don't feel brave, there are risks I have been too afraid to take, real bravery is living out of your heart, it's being honest.

Well here's some cold, hard honestly that I have been afraid to share until now: I hated Alaska.

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November 3, 2017

 

When old songs bring up old shit


By Jamiejoy Lidberg

We were together but for a moment
We were together but for the length of the night

And in that short time span, I fell hard and fast for you
I do that, I wish I was not that way

I wish there had been more

Others
Anyone to dull the pain of all lessons you taught me that night
For I was a child and you were my teacher


I hoped for summer love


But you only had grades to give


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October 10, 2017

 

 

 

 

The Affair
By Jamiejoy Lidberg

I'm having an affair with security.
I’ve taken her trip and fallen.

I woke up in her bed this morning with her arms wrapped around me.
I pretended I was still asleep, I could not bring myself to leave.

The sun rays shown in through the old white Victorian Windows.
A gently breeze blew through the large open room.
There was a magic in the air; Such peace, such love.
And as I let it envelope my body, I wondered if I was making a mistake…

I haven't felt this way in a long time.
I don't wake up this way with freedom.

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October 6, 2017

 

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Minneapolis


By Jamiejoy Lidberg

I am back in my home town of Minneapolis, Minnesota. The past week I've taken off just for r and r. I've been sleeping in, going to farmers markets, cooking all the healthy food, hanging out with my sisters and visiting with old friends.

It has been SO GOOD! 
I didn't realize how much I missed this beautiful city 

October 3, 2017

 

 

 

Sitting at the Juneau airport, I'm holding back tears. 
My heart is a mess and it's not because I'm leaving. 

I get this way sometimes, about traveling.

Most of the time I love it, but there are hard moments too.
Times of loneliness, feeling lost
grieving the home and family I don't have to go back to.

I've heard it said before that people are not happy without choices.
But also, people are equally as unhappy with too many choices.
Perhaps this is my issues.
I have the whole word!
Perhaps if I just pick a place and go, this restlessness will release me

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September 25, 2017

 

Last day on the boat


By Jamiejoy Lidberg

The first time I rode on a ferry was just five years ago, traveling from Narragansett, Rhode Island out to Block Island.

I had taken a job as a Stewardess on a river boat and we were traveling to the island to meet our new captain and set sail.

Growing up in MN, I knew little about the ocean or boats, and I remember being facinated by the entire process. 
Even on the ferry ride, I felt like a wide eyed child; "We can walk around on the open deck? What if we hit a wave and fall off?"

In the months that followed we visited Martha's vineyard, Nantucket, Providence, Bristol, New Bedford, Albany, Kingston, Catskill, New York City and more.


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September 22, 2017

 

 

 

Disney Cruise Lines
By Jamiejoy Lidberg

Every Thursday the Disney Wonder Cruise ship comes in and docks across the pier. I cant help but think back to 2013...
Was it really only 4 years ago that I was working on a Disney ship?

 

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For the past 5 months have been working on Disney cruise line.

The idea of working on a cruise ship came to me a couple years ago, and after researching it, I decided it would be a great way to save money and travel.

I applied to several different cruise lines last fall. I got lucky and was contacted by Disney.

After 3 months of interviews and screenings, I was on my way to work in the children's program on the Disney Fantasy...

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Written in the spring of 2014

 

They were shooting stars...

By Jamiejoy Lidberg

They were shooting stars in my night sky. Burning moments, beautiful connections, fleeting streaks of light.

But I was the night sky and my heart the moon. My love galaxies. Moving and expanding.
And my beauty captivated those with eyes to see it; The lovers, the seekers, the ones with open hearts. And over the rest I cast a spell. A deep peaceful slumber.

And you were the sun, you were light,
And you sustained the earth.
But your rising caused my fall, 
And your rays broke the spell of my moonbeam's. 
And I was a wanderer, but you remained fixed. You were the center, unwavering, and steady. 
And I wondered at your strength, your light, your love.
But we were from different worlds, separated by magnetic forces.


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August 21, 2017

 

 

 

Skagway, Alaska
By Jamiejoy Lidberg

I have been here in Skagway Alaska for one month now. It is a small tourist town in the South East panhandle. We are the last town nestled at the end of the Lynn Canal, about 100 miles North of Juneau.

The population year round is only 800 people, though in the summer (because of all the touring cruise ships) the population doubles with seasonal workers.

The town is 4 blocks wide and 22 blocks long. The old renovated motel that acts as our employee housing “Brown Town” lies on the 21st block, near the train depot.

The town has one grocery store, a hardware store (which acts as our walmart), and a lot of little tourist shops.

The barge comes in to restocks our three isle grocery store every Tuesday afternoon. We are the last stop on its route and so produce is limited and very expensive.

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August 14, 2017

 

We Fly/New adventure

By Jamiejoy Lidberg

I've spent the past three and a half months here at our little Airbnb/hippy commune. It has been such a beautiful season of healing and community.

But tomorrow I'm leaving it behind for a new adventure in Alaska; For sailing ocean waters and exploring new culture and terrain.

I love the Airstream.
I love this little home I've created. But when the universe hands you the world, you don't settle on a 60x60 ft plot...

You forge the treacherous terrain, you swim up the river, you climb the mountain, and you jump...

The earth only holds those who too afraid too make the journey.

But darling we transend the earth.
We hold the world,
We fly.


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July 15, 2017

 

 

 

Reminiscing 
By Jamiejoy Lidberg

I'm sitting in a coffee shop in Santa Fe.
Bon Iver is playing on the speakers above.

It was two and a half years ago that I played this album on repeat... over and over as I drove down the east coast.
It was fall and I was on a road trip.
I was sure that on this trip I was going to find some adorable beach town to move to and call home.
I drove to the Outer Banks and from there to Wilmington. I was dreaming of the ocean, riding my bicycle to the farmers market, fishing, and sharing my home with other travelors.

A week later however, I returned to MN feeling defeated. I had found no such magic location...

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May 29, 2017

 

Infinite 


By Jamiejoy Lidberg

I am a piece of dust
A moment in passing time
A leaf blown from a tree
A flower to bloom and wither or be picked from the earth

I am human tissue
A living organisms
I am nature
I am the daughter of light


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May 16, 2017

 

 

 

Expanding
By Jamiejoy Lidberg

It's Sunday morning,
The airstream still doesn't have heat.
My Mr buddy heater is humming in the corner
I sip my coffee, grateful that these cold spells are extremely rare for this time of year.
There is a young man who lives in an artist studio next to me.
He sits on his roof and plays the flute.
Normally It would wake me
And I would turn over amoungst clouds of pillows and blankets.
But today I am up early, ready for a full day of work.
I've been here one day short of a month. It has been an up and down transition.

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April 30, 2017

 

Airstream!


By Jamiejoy Lidberg


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March 22, 2017

 

 

 

Airstream Email/Dreams
By Jamiejoy Lidberg

Before there ever was a van there was just a dream; of travel, a family and a home.

The home would be small with large windows and a garden outside. Long sheer curtains would line the wood window frames and blow freely in the breeze from ever open glass panes. Bamboo wind chimes would hang in a tree outside and would lull me to sleep and awake, each morning and night.

There would be no TV, no microwave, but instead an excessive amount of books and a guitar in the corner.
And if I was ever lucky enough to find a man to share this dream, we would fill the air with the aroma of coffee and red wine, and with the sounds of our own terrible out of tune music.

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March 18, 2017

 

High on Life


By Jamiejoy Lidberg

I left the group I've been caravaning with in Lake Havasu this past week. It was hard saying goodbye but it just felt like the right time.

I'm heading east now to deal with an investment gone awry, and from there to figure out where to get a job and spend the summer.

The past five days is the longest I've been alone since moving into the van... I thought I would adjust quickly, but instead I've felt disappointment and isolation.

I know this also has to do with my past resurfacing... but I've done the work there. And I've now built a life I love.

Laying in bed this evening, feeling blue and scrolling through Facebook, I came upon a video of a friend dancing.
It happens every once in a while that you come across something so inspiring that it motivates you to move. To actually get up and do the things you know you are meant to be doing.


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March 14, 2017

 

 

 

The Cult Next Door
By Jamiejoy Lidberg

Friends,
I've been overwhelmed with loving comments and messages since my post the other day.

I haven't always had such a supportive community and I want you to know it means the world to have you in my corner.

The short documentary below was released last week by high school student Jake Youngman. This is the community I grew up in and was a part of until I graduated high school.

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March 10, 2017

 

Emotional Stuff
By Jamiejoy Lidberg

I've been putting off posting this for while now... I was afraid of the responses I might get.

I want to keep things light and happy but we all know that's not always how life works. So to be honest, I've been going through some emotional stuff lately.

Some of you know about my backround and the way I was raised... I don't talk about it much because, well, religion is messy.

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March 9, 2017

 

 

 

Balloon Festival
By Jamiejoy Lidberg

A week late but too good not to share:

I woke up later then I had planned and considered going back to bed. It was another very cold morning and I was out of coffee.
I reasoned with myself "I already got balloon pictures yesterday", and "perhaps I'll just snap a few photos from the van window".
But was I really too lazy to get out of bed when I had camped out in the festivals parking lot?
I forced myself out into the freezing cold and headed towards the field.

I wandered amongst groups unloading and filling their balloons. It was actually pretty amazing that they even let people on the field. I tried shots from different angles and took a few videos clips. "Just a one more" I told myself. My hands were going numb from the cold.

"You here to help?" I heard I man's voice from behind me.

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February 28, 2017

 

Pahrump, NV
By Jamiejoy Lidberg

I wake up at 3:30am and cant fall back asleep.
I look at my phone; the temp reads 34 degrees.
I lay in bed for a while, refusing to leave my warm sleeping bag. Finally I get motivated and get up to start my buddy heater.

I make coffee and pancakes at 430am.
It someone feels romantic, like magic is in the air. I remind myself that I am living the life I dreamed about for so long. I am here. It is magic!

The BLM land I'm parked on stretches for miles, though it is only several miles from the town.


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February 29, 2017

 

 

 

Freedom>
By Jamiejoy Lidberg

I wanted to wait until it was completely healed before posting a picture, but look what I got when I made my first stop in Albuquerque?!
It's my very first tattoo!


If you know me/ have followed my blog for any length of time, you know that my journey hasn't always been easy. I have had a lot of obstacles and alot of broken dreams. Perhaps it was my religious upbringing, focused on rules and perfection that has caused this sort of obsession with freedom. It seems to be the common theme through all of my travels and past endeavors. 

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February 8, 2017

 

San Diego
By Jamiejoy Lidberg

I sit on the floor of the van with the doors swung open. I am at Ocean Beach in San Diego, parked at the very end of the parking lot. I have a view of the quiet end of the beach, though the sand dunes block the sight of the water. It is the most peaceful spot I have found since coming here to the city. Planes fly close and loud overhead, and a man washes his hair in the public beach shower. He makes loud growing noises as he suffers through the cold water. It is in the upper 50’s.

I decided very quickly that I do not like San Diego. It is loud and overcrowded.


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February 5, 2017

 

 

 

Reraised In The Wild
By Jamiejoy Lidberg

 

I said to the sun "weather me"
And to the moon "cast me under your spell"
I asked the stars to teach me;
How to shine and how to fall when it is time

And from the desert I'll learn peace
The forest, wisdom
The mountain, strength
And in the ocean seas I will find my freedom

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January 30, 2017

To Stay or To Go?
By Jamiejoy Lidberg

 

I have back home from TN for a week now. The cold weather is setting in and gives me a panicky feeling. "Not another winter!". I promised myself last winter that it would be my last... I said the same thing the past two winters before that. Yet now somehow I am faced with that decision again; leaving in the worst of circumstances or staying yet again.

Regardless of what we decide to do with the airstream it is going to take some time. This means that if I left and traveled now, I would be stuck with the airstream loan payment with no source of income to pay it off. I've debating leaving anyway... I could find work on the road. I could busk, sell stuff, pick up gigs or temp jobs...

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October 12, 2016

 

First Stop: Quartzsite, AZ

By Jamiejoy Lidberg

 

I've spent the past 10 days here in Quartzsite, AZ for the yearly RTR boondocking meetup. I wasn't quite sure how I would do "roughing it", but overall things went well. Not having consistent cell service has been the only real issue, otherwise I am adjusting to propane, a porta potty and showering every couple of days.

In the summer, Quartzsite is a sleepy desert town with a population of around 3,500 residents. During the winter months however it is filled with up to 1,000,000 people and their RV's/vehicles.

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January 25, 2017

Airstream progress

By Jamiejoy Lidberg

 

I really thought this was going to go differently…

I sit on the plywood bench, my tears falling and soaking into the subfloor below me.
I hold a bottle of red wine in my hands and pressed it agents my lips over and over again.
My vision blurrs I stare up at the metal engraving; AIRSTREAM.

I thought coming here would leave me with a resolution but I am more conflicted than ever.
The airstream sits, door open at the end of a gravel drive. Wall beams sit bare and wires strewn from the ceiling like frozen confetti.
Its not near to being completed.

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October 1, 2016

 

When Your Dream Turns Into A Nightmare
By Jamiejoy Lidberg

 

I gathered my courage and told myself words I don't ever remember ever hearing; "you can be whatever you want" and "this life is what you make it". I convinced myself.

I did away with all those things they told me I needed to be; I was not made for a man, I do not want to spend years inside the four walls of a collage. I will forge my own way. I will take a different path.

I made the perfect plan. I slaved and saved and invested. And then I rode on hope and waited, as the weeks turned to months and the months turned into a year.

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September  15, 2016

 

Owning The Past
By Jamiejoy Lidberg

 

Some people have an upbringing that fosters exploration and creativity, then later in life find themselves feeling restricted and weighted down. My life has been very much the opposite.

Far too much of my past was spent in dark religion. Some people call it legalism, some people call it a cult, some people call it truth and still cling to the system.

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April 7, 2016

 

Downsizing
By Jamiejoy Lidberg

I had measured at some point, Im sure of it! "27 feet is not THAT big!" My friend was walking the length of Spyhouse coffee shop. “That’s 27 ft” he declared far to confidently.

I just sat and silently stared, trying to wrap my head around towing something that gigantic...
I knew I wasn’t going to be able to stop and park it just anywhere, but his estimations seemed MUCH larger then I was anticipating. And yet, the interior is only 23ft, meaning I will have 150 sq ft of living space.

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March 2, 2016

 

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Meditation
By Jamiejoy Lidberg

 

I recognize myself as heart, spirit, and soul, in a sort of unwalled white space inside my chest area.

As I sit my thoughts become frequencies passing above my head. Some of them go through my brain and as they circulate there is a sort of electricity. Most stay for a few moments and exit out the other side. Some stay too long and some I can’t let go of. They internalize into a sort of voice that I now have a hard time ridding myself of.

My experiences become the air. Everything I have done or been a part of is air I breath into my body.

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January 29, 2016

 

 

 

Christmas Letter
By Jamiejoy Lidberg

 

Christmas is my favorite time of year, especially here in Minnesota! Its time I get to spend with family and friends. It’s hope and happiness in the midst of numbing cold.

It has been an emotional year for me. A year of grief, discovery and hope, but mainly the evolution of dreams.

It seems like forever now that I have been trying to figure out what to do with my life. It has been a question that has not been easy to answer. However after many months of saving, researching and soul searching, I finally have a vision. An oh so beautiful dream that I could spend a lifetime pursuing.

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December 18, 2015

 

Today Is My Gift
By Jamiejoy Lidberg

 

I didn't think much about my birthday this year.... I guess because there are so many other exciting things going on in my life. These days, everyday feels like my birthday. I guess that is the magic of dreams and purpose.


I've spent A LOT of time dreaming about the future. Preparing for this upcoming season, working and saving for this next big adventure. But a while ago I was dreaming about today, and not so long ago this day was all that mattered...

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December 1, 2015

 

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