Month: March 2017

Airstream Email / Dreams

Airstream Email / Dreams

Before there ever was a van there was just a dream; of travel, a family and a home. The home would be small with large windows and a garden outside. Long sheer curtains would line the wood window frames and blow freely in the breeze […]

Infinite

Infinite

I am a piece of dust A moment in passing time A leaf blown from a tree A flower to bloom and wither or be picked from the earth I am human tissue A living organisms I am nature I am the daughter of light […]

High on Life

High on Life

I left the group I’ve been caravaning with in Lake Havasu this past week. It was hard saying goodbye but it just felt like the right time.
I’m heading east now to deal with an investment gone awry, and from there to figure out where to get a job and spend the summer.
The past five days is the longest I’ve been alone since moving into the van… I thought I would adjust quickly, but instead I’ve felt disappointment and isolation.
I know this also has to do with my past resurfacing… but I’ve done the work there. And I’ve now built a life I love.
Laying in bed this evening, feeling blue and scrolling through Facebook, I came upon a video of a friend dancing.
It happens every once in a while that you come across something so inspiring that it motivates you to move. To actually get up and do the things you know you are meant to be doing.
And to realize that this life… in spite of the pain and turmoil and madness. It really is beautiful. It really is a gift!
I’ve had some people make references lately about how I seem to be living in a fantasy world. And when am I going to wake up to the reality of it all…
Your reality is what you make it. And I don’t plan on waking up from mine anytime soon.
I may still have bad days, fears and regrets, but that is a cloud on a summers day. When you grow up the way I did and you live in darkness for so long… this is light, this is magic.
To have air in my lungs and love in my heart, creativity in my hands and freedom in my feet. And to be healthy, AND commitment free, AND TO LIVE IN MY VERY OWN CAMPER VAN?!
Sorry to all the realists, but I’m back to being high on life.

The cult next door

The cult next door

I’ve been putting off posting this for while now… I was afraid of the responses I might get. I want to keep things light and happy but we all know that’s not always how life works. So to be honest, I’ve been going through some […]